So today was MUCH better! I had a small bowl of cereal for breakfast (cinnamon Life) you know, so small you keep looking in the bowl to figure out where the leak is. Then I had an Odwalla breakfast bar for a snack, a chocolate-peanut one, it was really good too, but I found myself ravenous about an hour later. I went to an Indian place for lunch, got it to go back to work, and I actually found out that I do possess a modicum of will power!! I only ate half of it, and brought the rest home, I was proud of myself.
I didn't manage to do any real activity today though, seeing as The Girl kept me up half the night kicking and screaming, so I was so tired, when the kids got home from school, we all took a group nap.
I did end up breaking another rule I had set for myself, not to eat past 7:30, since we went out to eat. I had one roll, a salad, and a grilled chicken breast with some rice, and I had a little of my mashed potatoes, but I did leave most of them on the plate. We even ordered dessert for the kids, but since it was so late, they can have it for an after school snack tomorrow. So I go to bed, not completely stuffed and uncomfortable, like usual, but pleasantly full and content.
It's so hard, for me anyway, to not eat until I want to gag, why is that?? Is it some inner fear that this is gonna be my last meal ever?? Or, gee, I don't know when I'm gonna get a chance to eat again? I need to get over that and realize there is nothing wrong with not eating until you want to puke. And realize that is WAY before I generally STOP eating!!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
Welcome!
So this is my first "official" post! I started this blog to help me keep an "almost" daily journal about my struggles and triumphs. I hope that people can relate.
Starting off, I need to lose, God, I don't even want to admit how much I need to lose! Let's start by setting a smaller goal, that's what I always tell myself, let's lose 20 and then see how we feel, and go from there. Sadly, I get discouraged WAY before I hit the 20# mark and most of the time, end up another 5 pounds higher than before, blah.
I guess I should say, I've done Weight Watchers, that was most recently, and did have success, lost 12 pounds in about 3 months, not nearly as fast as I wanted to. I have done Atkins, South Beach, some weird chicken broth diet, and Slim Fast, and probably tons others.
I wake up today with good intentions. I got up early, around 6am, fixed a cup of hot tea, have some quiet time with Big Daddy before I get the kids up, eat a peanut butter granola bar (Nature's Valley, supposed to be healthy, right?) Then after I eat it, I think, hmm, how many fat grams are in this thing? 9!!! I was shocked. So much for my healthy breakfast!!
I must say, I hate all things breakfast related. On weekdays. On weekends, I'm fine with going to Ihop or Cracker Barrel, anywhere for a good, hot breakfast, but during the week, I can't stand breakfast. I usually eat any leftovers from dinner the night before, or a sandwich or something. Not the best, I know, another area I struggle with.
So, I guess having my super high fat granola bar for breakfast wasn't a great start to my new day. For lunch I decide to eat the leftovers from last night, beef and broccoli and fried rice, yum, highly fattening, but I'm just gonna have a little bit, right? There was only a bit in the container, so I heat it up, and only then realize, wow, that's way more than I thought was in there. And I don't HAVE to eat it all...of course I do anyway. UGH!!
Then, time to pick the kids up for school, who are screaming for Sonic. Will it never end?! So, one strawberry limeade and fried jalepeno strips later, here I am, about to eat dinner that's been cooking in the crock pot all day. It's not too bad, a whole chicken, I will peel the skin off, so it shouldn't be too bad right??? So, day one down and already I feel like I'm off to a horrible start.
Starting off, I need to lose, God, I don't even want to admit how much I need to lose! Let's start by setting a smaller goal, that's what I always tell myself, let's lose 20 and then see how we feel, and go from there. Sadly, I get discouraged WAY before I hit the 20# mark and most of the time, end up another 5 pounds higher than before, blah.
I guess I should say, I've done Weight Watchers, that was most recently, and did have success, lost 12 pounds in about 3 months, not nearly as fast as I wanted to. I have done Atkins, South Beach, some weird chicken broth diet, and Slim Fast, and probably tons others.
I wake up today with good intentions. I got up early, around 6am, fixed a cup of hot tea, have some quiet time with Big Daddy before I get the kids up, eat a peanut butter granola bar (Nature's Valley, supposed to be healthy, right?) Then after I eat it, I think, hmm, how many fat grams are in this thing? 9!!! I was shocked. So much for my healthy breakfast!!
I must say, I hate all things breakfast related. On weekdays. On weekends, I'm fine with going to Ihop or Cracker Barrel, anywhere for a good, hot breakfast, but during the week, I can't stand breakfast. I usually eat any leftovers from dinner the night before, or a sandwich or something. Not the best, I know, another area I struggle with.
So, I guess having my super high fat granola bar for breakfast wasn't a great start to my new day. For lunch I decide to eat the leftovers from last night, beef and broccoli and fried rice, yum, highly fattening, but I'm just gonna have a little bit, right? There was only a bit in the container, so I heat it up, and only then realize, wow, that's way more than I thought was in there. And I don't HAVE to eat it all...of course I do anyway. UGH!!
Then, time to pick the kids up for school, who are screaming for Sonic. Will it never end?! So, one strawberry limeade and fried jalepeno strips later, here I am, about to eat dinner that's been cooking in the crock pot all day. It's not too bad, a whole chicken, I will peel the skin off, so it shouldn't be too bad right??? So, day one down and already I feel like I'm off to a horrible start.
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