So today was MUCH better! I had a small bowl of cereal for breakfast (cinnamon Life) you know, so small you keep looking in the bowl to figure out where the leak is. Then I had an Odwalla breakfast bar for a snack, a chocolate-peanut one, it was really good too, but I found myself ravenous about an hour later. I went to an Indian place for lunch, got it to go back to work, and I actually found out that I do possess a modicum of will power!! I only ate half of it, and brought the rest home, I was proud of myself.
I didn't manage to do any real activity today though, seeing as The Girl kept me up half the night kicking and screaming, so I was so tired, when the kids got home from school, we all took a group nap.
I did end up breaking another rule I had set for myself, not to eat past 7:30, since we went out to eat. I had one roll, a salad, and a grilled chicken breast with some rice, and I had a little of my mashed potatoes, but I did leave most of them on the plate. We even ordered dessert for the kids, but since it was so late, they can have it for an after school snack tomorrow. So I go to bed, not completely stuffed and uncomfortable, like usual, but pleasantly full and content.
It's so hard, for me anyway, to not eat until I want to gag, why is that?? Is it some inner fear that this is gonna be my last meal ever?? Or, gee, I don't know when I'm gonna get a chance to eat again? I need to get over that and realize there is nothing wrong with not eating until you want to puke. And realize that is WAY before I generally STOP eating!!
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