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So this is my first "official" post! I started this blog to help me keep an "almost" daily journal about my struggles and triumphs. I hope that people can relate.

Starting off, I need to lose, God, I don't even want to admit how much I need to lose! Let's start by setting a smaller goal, that's what I always tell myself, let's lose 20 and then see how we feel, and go from there. Sadly, I get discouraged WAY before I hit the 20# mark and most of the time, end up another 5 pounds higher than before, blah.

I guess I should say, I've done Weight Watchers, that was most recently, and did have success, lost 12 pounds in about 3 months, not nearly as fast as I wanted to. I have done Atkins, South Beach, some weird chicken broth diet, and Slim Fast, and probably tons others.

I wake up today with good intentions. I got up early, around 6am, fixed a cup of hot tea, have some quiet time with Big Daddy before I get the kids up, eat a peanut butter granola bar (Nature's Valley, supposed to be healthy, right?) Then after I eat it, I think, hmm, how many fat grams are in this thing? 9!!! I was shocked. So much for my healthy breakfast!!

I must say, I hate all things breakfast related. On weekdays. On weekends, I'm fine with going to Ihop or Cracker Barrel, anywhere for a good, hot breakfast, but during the week, I can't stand breakfast. I usually eat any leftovers from dinner the night before, or a sandwich or something. Not the best, I know, another area I struggle with.

So, I guess having my super high fat granola bar for breakfast wasn't a great start to my new day. For lunch I decide to eat the leftovers from last night, beef and broccoli and fried rice, yum, highly fattening, but I'm just gonna have a little bit, right? There was only a bit in the container, so I heat it up, and only then realize, wow, that's way more than I thought was in there. And I don't HAVE to eat it all...of course I do anyway. UGH!!

Then, time to pick the kids up for school, who are screaming for Sonic. Will it never end?! So, one strawberry limeade and fried jalepeno strips later, here I am, about to eat dinner that's been cooking in the crock pot all day. It's not too bad, a whole chicken, I will peel the skin off, so it shouldn't be too bad right??? So, day one down and already I feel like I'm off to a horrible start.